My surgery is set. We have to be up at an unholy hour to get to the hospital on time tomorrow. I’m as mentally and physically ready to do this as I possibly can be I think. It’s time to get this done.
I want to use this post to remind myself of the state that I want to come back to. You see, we found out about my condition less than two weeks after we got engaged. We were so amazingly happy. I don’t think I’ve ever been that happy before. It was crazy.
And then it all came crashing down all too soon. We’ve been through a lot. I continue to joke that I really didn’t mean to test out the whole “for better or for worse, in sickness or in health” thing *before* we got hitched. But if this experience has confirmed anything for me, it’s that I’ve made the right choice in my life partner. I can’t wait for the day that we get to celebrate our decision amongst those we love the most.
So that’s what I want to carry with me in my next step in this experience. My energy will be focused on healing quickly and returning to that joy and happiness we had before all this happened. I even have a few pictures to remind me.
I took these the day before I found out about my condition and never got to post them. This is the sweater that will forever be known as The Engagement Sweater since it’s the one that I found my ring on.
I also just happened to be wearing it when I was told about my condition. At the time it filled me with sorrow because I thought I had ruined the memories that I would forever associate with it, but thinking back on it I’m glad that I was wrapped in a garment that was infused with more love than I ever thought possible when I was told one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to hear in my life.
Now that I think about it, it may just have to come to the hospital with me, even if I can’t wear it.
See those smiles? That’s what I will return to when I get back. That’s the joy I’m going to capture again. When this is over I’ll be able to return to that feeling and really start planning the day when it will all come together. I’m so very lucky to have so much to look forward to after all this is done.
Your continued good thoughts and well wishes in the coming days are greatly appreciated. Please also think of HWJF and my parents. As difficult as this will be for me, standing by and watching it all happen will be as difficult, if not more so.
I’m ready. Let’s do this.
See you soon!
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Jessica, You, HWJF, and your family will all be in out thoughts and prayers. And the sweater is beautiful
I’ll be sending many good thoughts your way. I love your marker for healing. May you be back…and moving forward…very soon.
All the best to HWJF, your parents and you! See you back here soon!
I will keep you, HWJF, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Jessica, all of you are wrapped in love, wonderful healing wishes, and I’m sending prayers up for you all.
You’ll be in my thoughts tomorrow!! See you back here, Plurking, and on Rav soon! {{{hugs}}}
Thinking of ‘you and yours’ and sending positive energy ‘beaming’ your way…
WQoohoo! She’s got a good attitude! Mwah! You know I’m thinking about you and sending good surgery vibes, then good healing vibes!
Best wishes for a speedy recovery!
Sending good vibes & big hugs your way..
Having recently gone through surgery of a spouse (arthroscopic procedure on hubster’s shoulder), you bet your boots I understand HWJF’s day tomorrow.
Both of you will be very much in my thoughts tomorrow. You will be back in that smile before you know it! ((((HUGS))))
I’ve been thinking about you, HWJF, and your family all day today and will be tomorrow as well. I know it was all difficult to hear about that shortly after your engagement, but I hope that many happy memories will be still associated with your sweater! With all the support you have surrounding you with HWJF and your parents by your side, you’ll also have the support of all of us, your friends who you may have yet to meet, who are all pulling for you and are here for you to lean on throughout all of this.
Hopefully HWJF can keep us updated via Plurk or Twitter or your blog to let us know that you made it through surgery okay. I know I, for one, will be waiting (impatiently) to find out how you’re doing!! I know that you will be in able hands tomorrow and it will all be downhill from there. The hardest and most nerve wracking part for me was getting to the hospital and going into surgery. I figured after that it’d all be cake. The first week surely was anything BUT cake, but looking back I feel really fortunate and know I feel so much better on the other side of this. It won’t all be easy, however I know that you are going to get through this and feel better on the other side.
Besides, you have to come back for Summer of Socks ’09 and I have to hang out with you at Rhinebeck this year
PS Email/call/text me whenever you want or need to. Wish I could be there physically, but I’m here for you.
will definitely be thinking of you all day tomorrow and be on the edge of my seat waiting for news from HWJF
let me know if there is anything else you need help with and when you are ready for a visit
I’ve been thinking about you and HWJF and I will be doing so tomorrow, too! You have such a healthy attitude going into this, and I’m sure that will get you far. I’m sure that soon all your thoughts will be devoted to weddings and fiber
Sending positive, healing vibes you and your family’s way!
I think that sweater was certainly there with you to be a warm hug when you got some difficult news. And yes, bring it with you as a lucky charm. I’ll be thinking of you all tomorrow.
thinking of you
the sweater is gorgeous, and you look so happy
Good wishes and good luck.
sending happy, healthy, healing vibes your way
I will be thinking of you tomorrow. All will go well, I know it. Thank you for being *you*.
Lots and lots of luck tomorrow, Jessica!
And yes, that sweater is way too beautiful to let that bad news “spoil” it. Especially since it wore your engagement ring even before you did. And, of course, the fact that that bad news turned out to be pretty lucky … or at least, once you’re past the next couple of weeks!
I’ll be thinking of you!
(And yes, I DID need that many exclamation points.) !
I know you will be fine. I’ll see you soon, and in the mean time, I will be sending healing energy your way.
You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers this night and tomorrow. See you Tuesday.
Hey, my security word is “basson”!
What a beautiful post. I will be sending lots of good and healing thoughts and to you, HWJF, and your family. Take care.
Jess, I’m thinking of you and wishing you the very best for fast and complete healing!!!
May your recovery be swift. My best wishes to you and your family.
I’ll be thinking good thoughts for you and your family, and sending healing energy for your speedy recovery!
You certainly have the right attitude, and it sounds like you’re doing all the right things. I’ll be thinking positive thoughts for you and your family. (And that is one awesome sweater! Absolutely gorgeous AND full of love.)
All the best to you and yours. Great sweater, great romance, great vibes….you’ll be fine.
I’ll be thinking of you and your family today. Wishing you a speedy recovery!
Such a great attitude, you are such a champ:)
I’m sending my love! I have confidence in you.
I am sending good thoughts your way and wishing you a speedy recovery. All the best…..
Hugs, healthy thoughts, and happiness all winging their way to you, HWJF, and your parents! Looking forward to hearing the all better news!
Positive and healing energy being sent your way now and until you don’t need it anymore.
Hope the ‘magic’ sweater is there with you in the hospital. It will surely help!!
I know your body will knit itself back together quickly. My thoughts are with you.
Sending good vibes and thoughts your way. I knew HWJF was a keeper after he carved a spinning wheel on a pumpkin. Here’s to a quick recovery and the smiles and joy will return in triplicate!
Much love and prayers for you Jessica, hope things are going well for you today!
You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
Thinking just good things for all of you today. Come back feeling great soon.
It is a beautiful sweater. Made all the more beautiful by the joy that you radiate in those photos. That’s our Jessica.
I am so proud of you for having such a good outlook on all of this. I think that’s going to be so important in the healing time. I’m still thinking about all of you and sending love. Rest while you can, sweetie, because summer and the socks wait for no one. ;^)
xo
Here’s to coming out on the other side…
Lots of happiness awaits you!!
hugs to all!
Sending good thoughts and best wishes to you Jessica! Feel better soon!
been sending and will continue to send healthy & happy thoughts. may you have a speedy and complete recovery. xx
The “power ring” photo is totally my favorite. You two ARE superheroes!!!
Hey there… I hope that by now this note finds you well on the way to recovery. I’ve been thinking of you this week and wish only the best for you. I do hope that someday that beautiful sweater hold only the happy memories, and that these uncertain days will be relegated to a blip in the continuum. Only happy thoughts now, I hope…
Hugs,
Trish